Do you have days where you really just do not want to get out of bed?
Do you ever feel hopeless, useless or unworthy?
These are all feelings we feel at some point in our lives but lately, after a long hard look at myself I have realised something.. I am stronger than i thought….
Recently I have been dealing with some old demons that decided to rear their ugly heads again. Not a very pretty sight. Trying to pull me back to the dark place that i lived in for nearly 2 years that nearly wrecked my life ( not being dramatic).
This time though, I saw them coming and I wasn’t afraid to ask for help. I told my family what was happening and I was open and honest about how I was feeling and it felt really good to talk about it. I realised that I was stronger than i was 2 years ago and i needed to sort myself out before I got to that place again.
I have start an NVQ in Customer Services through work and I am starting to enjoy the little things in life again slowly but surely. I have taken up writing again ( hence this blog), reading, i’m back at choir, eating healthily, going to the gym and I have been really focusing on doing well in my job. It’s a struggle balancing studies and work but it just goes to show that putting yourself first is not being selfish. It is definitely a good thing.
We all need to take time for ourselves, to appreciate what we have and try to look on the positive and bright side of life.
I am 29 next week and it has taken me this long to start taking control of my life. I ill never be 100% free of depression and those demons but I know that if i talk about it with my family and friends I trust and I ask for help when i need it I know I an keep it at bay.
We all have that strength inside us, whether you chose to use it is up to you. Put out positivity and you will attract positivity. 🙂
Do you take time for yourself?
Do you appreciate what you have?
If you don’t it is never to late to start 🙂
Remember It’s okay to talk